to wrap up 2010

by muchtomychagrin

It’s ironic, I actually signed up to do Reverb10 which was meant to prompt me each day for the month of December, random, insightful and introspective questions about my year. Basically it’s meant to push me to re-evaluate reflect on the year.

I’ve obviously managed to avoid doing that, and I think it’s because I’ve done enough reflecting THROUGHOUT the year, enough to showcase how much I’ve managed to figure out the little details of life, as well as, the gracefulness I’ve managed to show when it comes to accepting the bigger decisions.

And that people, I think comes with growing up.

I still love doing some things I think I’m too old to do – like drink a little too much, indulge a little too much, lose my inhibitions a little too easily – but I’m thinking that there is no better time than now. Because now, I can still get away with it.

I’m happy with the way I came to decide some biglifedecisions, how I dealt with some jerks that did not deserve to be in my life and how I easily disposed of them, and bounced back from it.

I normally do a year meme too of how I feel about life and what I’m currently making of it, but strangely I feel like 2010 doesn’t need it. Too much has happened, that a meme would be good to keep track of things, but for the first time, with the myriad of shit that’s been scattered all over the place, I’m feeling actually content.

And the best part of it all? Is realizing that you can’t control the circumstances that will make you feel happy, but purely just accepting it for all that it is.

I’ve let go. And it feels damn good.